JUNE 2025 - HELLO WELCOME

I’m not quite sure yet if I want this to be like a ‘what I’m up to’ kinda blog or more of a ‘here’s the things I’m listening to/reading’ kinda blog. As I’m writing this I’m already contemplating to call the whole thing off, cos ‘who’s gonna read it anyway?’. But that’s kinda why I made this website. I’ve officially decided that it doesn’t matter. People are busy, the Internet is oversaturated and quite frankly what I have to might even add to the noise that is distracting from the bigger problems we are definitely facing right now. Nontheless this will be a dumping ground for all things music/art/literature/movies/tv and maybe some life stuff in some capacity or other.

It’s funny how I grew up around the time where blogs were a huge thing and myspace and then tumblr kinda ruled the online world, yet I sort of only marginally participated in it. My older brother was p tapped into all of that stuff (maybe less so Tumblr but he definitely was the guy who was downloading everything on Npaster or limewire or whatever and making mixtapes and knew everything there is to know about on the interwebs, and of course all rock and alternative bands from like the beginning of time until present day, which I only later came to like/love) and I think i found it a little intimidating. I was more of an airhead that was REALLY into pop music and liked to perform (to like my mates and parents). First came pop music (my first album I ever bought (or asked for someone to buy for me I guess) was ‘Baby one more time’...I was big into all the pop groups and BIG MELODIES. Ultimately I liked to sing. Always have. When I was 4 I knew the whole back catalogue of Brian Adams by heart (because that’s what my mum was listening to), which also had big sort of 80’s ballads, then Dire Straits (thanks to Dad) and then came all the 50s and 60s stuff like Aretha Franklin, Bonnie Raitt etc. I was taking piano lessons at the time and I never made it beyond learning chords (eventhough I did do mad recitals with classical music that I wouldn’t be able to name anymore) so I could sing along and learn how to sing harmony and chord progressions. But I guess what stuck is how to sit at a piano and listen and find the notes and chords and then try play my own version.
I think ultimately I’ve always had this inner editor that was nervous about what it will LOOK like. It’s hard to put yourself out there tbh and I guess it’s something I struggle with a lot. One thing I’ve never been afraid of doing, and maybe even have a sort of intirnsic motivation for, is championing things/people. If I like something I will hype it up (put simply). I will religiously show up. For the most part of my teens and twenties this was gigs. I know there’s people out there (mUsIcIndUsTry PrOfEssioNaLs) that go to way more gigs than me and know more bands and have experienced things I don’t even know exist, but at times I’ve come close. I guess at one point I did end up in the middle of the London music scene and it’s kind of a mess. ESPECIALLY IF YOU’RE A GIRL/WOMAN. It’s like being nice is not something that translates well. But alas I’m kind of wired to be nice. I’m not saying like ‘everyone likes me’ it’s just I’m really not into cramping peoples style, but that’s, unfortunately, how you, in many cases, get noticed or remembered. Kinda awful in a way. Also slut shaming is a thing. and no, slut shaming isn’t always like the exposing kind where people publicly call you out, but if you happen to be sleeping with soemone who is ‘kind of influential’ or well known/liked in the industry, you will be known by association and that will be it :). No drama, just the end of the road.